i forgot to put any fragrance on today. omg! good thing my deodorant smells nice. i would hate to come across as unscented!
have started back at school, and i am stressin'! have taken to using fiery wall of protection as a result of extreme negativity at work--i have a bad feeling about my lead person. i swear, she schedules us specifically to make things difficult for me. maybe it's just paranoia, but i'm taking precautions. am also looking for new employment! i guess going back to school and taking statistics and speech at the same time isn't quite challenging enough. *sigh* my next purchase is likely going to be something to go along with fwop, probably clarity, determination, or concentration. i'll take any help i can get where school is concerned. heck, if i had the loot, i'd get all three!
in addition to school, i've been seeing someone. we met in april, and for the first time that i've actually believed it, i fell pretty hard. this should be great, right? there's always a caveat. he's going through a divorce. well, sitting in the middle of being legally separated and not sure if he wants to proceed would better explain the situation. his wife dumped him for another guy with whom she'd been cheating, apparently, and then they (the wife and the asshole) moved to peru. yes. south america. from wisconsin. that's just messed up, isn't it? so, they left in february, and naturally, when he and i started to see we felt something for one another, she starts e mailing him. she and her boyfriend broke up (shocking!), and now she's thinking of her husband and misses him. well, duh. she's in a foreign country with no close friends and no family whatsoever. the man she moved there for has dumped her. so instead of putting on her big girl panties and dealing with it, she's jerking around the man she trashed in the first place. she wants to get laid. so i'm pretty torn, here, to put it mildly. i really like him, but he's in no position to be getting serious right now. he's still hurting very much, and her stunts have left him very confused. i can't help him. i can't make it better. all i do is compound the situation by getting emotionally involved. and i have a test in stats on wednesday and a speech to present tuesday. i must be irretrievably mad.
