Imma start sticking your questions in here just in case they get lost in the forums. Plus some things I just don't want to air to the whole thread.

So anyways, I dunno, pampering... I've never really thought about it, so I tried to put some real, extra thought in it today. I would say the things that would make me feel best, feel queenly, are things that make me -look- it. I know it may be conceited to say, but appearance actually means a lot, not just to me, and that's only a recent thing, but to other people. How you look is the first thing people notice.

And I've noticed in the past recent few days that if I -look- good, I feel better about myself. I feel maybe a little more confident, a little more sexy, a little more motivated. And maybe those little things will add up, give me that boost I need to go out and kick some ass. People are nicer to pretty people. Pretty people have better chances at getting jobs and other things. It's really sad, but it's true, that's what society pushes on us.

I guess that's why I've gotten this real sudden interest in things that would help me be pretty. I would kill for a day of shopping with a couple of my gal pals from high school, then hitting up some clubs and just forgetting the world and dancing and having fun, and then of course post some pics on FB of all that so W. can see and be jealous of how amazing I look and how much fun I can have without him! And I know that's totally mean and petty, and most of me would never want to stoop to that kind of revenge, but the hurt part of me wants to hurt back. But I always said I would never do anything to hurt him on purpose, so, sigh... But I guess there's nothing wrong with that plan, maybe just without the rubbing it in his face part.

I just want him to see me and think "WOW!" like you said, make him see what he might be missing out on. If I can project that image to my outward appearance, then maybe I can feel it on the inside too. I just need a huge boost of confidence and bravery. Does any of that help at all? Cuz I'm not really sure what "items" would do it. Nice clothes, shoes, sparkly, pretty, shiny things?

He notices -everything- too, I think that's a military thing, that annoying attention to detail. Though that attention to detail might have saved his life at one point so I can't be too annoyed at that. But he pointed out once that he saw 7 people in one day wearing the shoes I always wear. I'm like, yeah, they were 10 bucks at Target, I'm sure everyone has them. He notices clothes, all sorts of things like that and I swear he's more of a girl than I am when it comes to clothes and fashion. Granted, I'm not hugely up to date on that sort of stuff. I tend to stay basic and comfortable, but try and look good at the same time, which I guess is where I fail.

Have I mentioned that he's absolutely gorgeous? When we first met irl 6 year ago, I had no idea what he looked like, we never exchanged pictures and it just never occurred to me to ask, cuz I already loved him from everything else I knew about him. He was incredibly cute back then, but omg, now... But yeah.

I want to make him drool! To have naughty dreams about me! To beg for my attention and company!

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According to the parental unit, my birth time was 6:52 am. April 15th 1983. I assume still in Cincinnati, since that was where I grew up. Do you need anything else?