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I want to get a job to support my BPAL habit. . . and that's probably the worst reason for wanting to get a job. I know I've mentioned anxiety in the past, but it's really, really bad. Paired with depression, it caused me to have several years that are mostly a blur of misery to me. I sort of crawled into myself and gave up. It's a whole big long sad story that I'm not up to rehashing at the moment, but it resulted in me applying and receiving disability from social security. I really just didn't have it in me to hold down a job. At that point, I was lucky to care enough to brush my teeth. I haven't worked in seven years. Getting a job would be spreading myself too thin, combined with school. I know most people can do both, but I'm just not that strong. It's frustrating, but I'm getting my feet under me. I'm sorely tempted to look for a job right now. Sorely. And I know I'm not ready. But I'm tired of having to budget every penny and I'm tired of feeling guilty for buying perfume, and I'm generally grouchy right now. I'm excited that I'm getting Katharina, though! (My husband's still unhappy about it, which makes me tense.) I am tired, tired, tired. And I'm in need of brushing of teeth and snuggling with the boy. 'Night, chickies.

If I'd tried either before my wedding, I would've undoubtedly worn Katharina (most likely) or Dorian.

I got this as a frimp from SevenSins! I hadn't read up on this scent, so I didn't know what to expect. It's lovely! My 11-year old cousin remarked immediately that I smelled like vanilla, but that wasn't my first impression. It has the sweetness of vanilla, to be sure. There's a soft ambery powder to it and it's really very subtle. Long lasting, too! I think it's been a full 24 hours since I applied it, and I can still sniff it on my wrist- and I don't slather. This one wasn't high on my radar of things to try, but I'm really glad I've had a chance now!

Monster Bait: Underpants is very much vanilla cream goodness. MB: Underbed is the cinnamon/angel food cake one. Vice is chocolatey, and the Red Queen was very much cherry cordials on me, despite the lack of a chocolate note. 13 is another good sweet one.

Dude! I know I just said this on my review, but Port au Prince dries down to a spice that smells just like the spice in Shub! That is awesome.

I got this as a birthday frimp! Thanks DLS! In the imp it was almond with a hint of booze. A little buttery and a little sweet. Hmm. On me: The almond fades and the spices come out to play. Dude! I didn't read through all the reviews, but does anybody else get the gorgeous spice from Shub out of this? Because that's exactly what I'm smelling on my arm. It's just the spice without the musk backdrop, but it's so shocking to smell it that I am in instant love with this one. As it dries down, the booze/butter/almond fades away entirely and leaves only the Shub spice. This is gorgeous!

I hope my next birthday is loads better than this one. But now it's his birthday! For the record: Birthday BPAL of '06: Lotus Moon. Mmmm!

Tested thanks to quikslvr's general catalog swap! This one is reminescent of Freak Show? I must try some! I tested this without checking the notes first. In the imp: Very sweet! Once it hits my skin, it's more sweetness. Sugary lemon? Is that right? I know there's citrus in this, and my skin seems to be loving it. There's not a whole lot of throw, near as I can tell, but I probably didn't use enough, either. I'll experiment when I get my own. As it dries, florals peek out, but the citrus dominates. I really love this, and that's unexpected. I do wish it would last longer, but again; that could be due to application. This one hits my top 10 right away! I don't know where I get florals from fig, but there you go. I think the fig grounds the citrus note extremely well, and it certainly adds depth and complexity to the scent. I still love thinking of this as sugared lemon. Mmm. It's good.

Hee. Dawndie's comment reminds me of my father in law. He'll do things like that to screw with people. Case in point: When my sister in law was about 9, she asked him what "que" meant in spanish. He deadpanned "What." So she asked him again. Same response. I giggle when I think about how long this must've gone on before my mother in law pulled her daughter away and in an exasperated voice, explained: "JB, "que" means "what" in spanish." V, I just wanted you to know that I tend to lurk on your blog, rather than comment all the time, and I'm not sure why that is. But I do love reading your entries. -G

I don't know what to get the boy for his birthday. I can't think of anything. Wow, that's crazy. Any ideas?

I am actually in a full-blown panic over never finding a bottle of House of Mirrors. Beaver Moon to a lesser degree. This is sort of scary. I think I need some rest. But it's really, really freaking me out. Seriously, though? House of Mirrors seems to have vanished from the swaps. (I know there are a couple there, but what if nobody ever wants to sell it again? ) And it's not like I have any real reason to be afraid I'll never get my hands on either of them ever again. It's irrational. That's how I know it's a panic attack.

I think I've figured it out. I sold the two bottles I had up for swap. If I can choose between Dorian and Alice, I'll make a big (for me!) order now and then snag one or maybe even two CD scents. Possibly a set of decants. Possibly a few decants eventually. If there are 13 scents, that's $65. Cripes. I don't know why that surprised me so much, heh. (I'm guessing about the 13 scents.) So I'll grab decants of whichever ones interest me most and then... gah. What about the BPTP update? The one it was insinuated/suggested would be a lot like the inquisition... That's what is keeping me back now. Ugh. I'm just driving myself nuts. An observation about shipping prices: It usually more than pays for itself in frimpage. That's kind of cool.

Tested thanks to the GC swap quikslvr arranged! This imp certainly smells like grapefruit. It's dark grapefruit. On my skin, wet to dry, it's more grapefruit. There's something dark and complex about this, and I really think it's clever. I'm a fan of citrus, though.

Tested thanks to the GC swap quikslvr arranged! In the imp, Aeval is crisp. On my skin, it's a lovely, soft floral- very together and traditional, and then it takes on a sort of daydreamy tone. It's lovely, and I'm wishing for more sweet pea. However, it's just not my type of floral... but I may be amenable to an imp.

Magnificent three-faced Goddess of Magic, the Dark Moon and the Crossroads. She is the Mother of Witches, and the midnight baying of hounds is her paean. Her compassion is evidenced in her role as Psychopomp for Persephone, and her wrath manifests as Medea’s revenge. Deep, buttery almond layered over myrrh and dark musk. Tested thanks to the GC swap quikslvr arranged! I tested this one without reading what the notes were first. I think I want an imp of this, as my nose has gotten a little more sensitive since my first test. That being said, here are my notes on it: In the imp: Fresh, clean. (It's that initial blast of almonds; I can identify it now. It wasn't buttery at all, to my nose. Isn't that strange?) On my skin: Reminds me of Panacea: Seduction somewhat. Then it turns soapy, and ultimately it's just not complex to my nose. I think I washed it off too soon. I think the myrrh and almond together would dry down beautifully together. Must retest.

I am all over the place tonight. So I have this horrible confession to make. I'm too embarrassed to make it on the forum, though I might as well be. Everytime somebody dies, I resent my dad for still being alive. I don't have the energy to actively hate him, though when I think about it, I do. I wonder if anyone will hurt when he dies. Gah. This isn't productive. I need to get out of here for a bit. I was going to postsecret that (with less words, of course), but I think I'll just leave it here.

I couldn't agree more with that sentiment... and that's sort of how I imagine it'll be when he does die. Just a relief.

I wish I could remember who sent included this as a frimp in a recent swap, because Katharina is so very wonderful. I had my doubts, I must admit. In the imp it smells sharp, and almost candy-ish. I was apprehensive about it being like Grand Guignol, which also has apricot in it. I applied it, and wasn't too impressed. Then I sniffed at my hand again, and... woah. I love this. It allowed me to identify white musk as a note that I adore, as well, which was exciting. I can't stop sniffing myself when I'm wearing this. The awesome thing? It lasts forever! I can't express how delightful this is. It's light and fruity and just... perfect. It knocked Whitechapel out of my number one favourite slot. If you're considering trying this; do! It is gorgeous. It's also convinced me that I need to try many more Illyria scents.

Tested thanks to the general catalog swap quikslvr arranged! From start to finish, this is Irish Spring soap on me. Once it begins to fade down some, it's nicer than the IN YOUR FACE BIOTCH! of the soapiness, but this one is being happily scrubbed off as soon as I submit this. Even the white musk didn't even this out on me.

Thank you. He actually has the most amazing daughter in the world, and two amazing sons. He is just too selfish to notice. (I my sister. She's 13 years older than me and just all around amazing.) I have to admit that when you said "I say "felt," because her dad died a couple of years ago." I thought you might be heading towards a story about how he's still her father and it still hurts to lose him and not taking life for granted- so thank you, also, for not going in that direction.

Deep mahogany and rich, velvety woods lacquered with sweet, black-red cherries and currant. Tested thanks to the GC swap quikslvr arranged! (Retested thanks to a frimp of this in a recent swap!) Imp: Very cherry and a little chocolatey. That's a good start. On: Bright, sugary cherry cordials! Or so my notes say, anyhow. It's listed as a must have scent, but that is not so this time around. I don't know if this is due to my hormones or what, but when I tried it today, it turned to ash. Well, not quite ash. It's the same sawdusty scent I always get from sandalwood. There was a faint breath of cherry, but it was overpoweringly musty. I'm glad I have an imp of this to play around with a little bit.

This is an awesome post. I've had similar moments, and been the object of similar moments. Y'know, up until I turned about 23, I would've said unquestionably that I have an old soul. Now, I sort of think my soul is lagging. I get the feeling that it's in the obnoxious pre-teen area. ...I'm serious. Heh. I'm glad for your friend, and I'm really glad for you. It is really difficult to be that involved in a friend's experiences.

I have about $50 in my paypal account. I really want to do whatever the BPTP event is going to be. I totally support the price increase and all that, but... I think I'm going to spend it on GC scents. I don't have anything for my husband's birthday. I don't have any ideas about what to get him. I... may actually not use it on BPAL at all. If I spend a ton of money on myself and don't have anything for him, that's just... wrong, to me. Wrong.

I bought this so I could anoint a professor's monkey god shrine with it... uh, and it's not as wierd as it sounds. But I still haven't done it. This scent sort of got lost in the shuffle of madness that was my life for most of Spring. Something about it is reminding me a little bit of Shub, without the sweetness. I only did a little patch test, because musks react badly on my skin, sometimes, but this is very woodsy and well behaved. There's also a hint of spice, which I love. I think I may need to get bold and wear it out, though I may wait for late fall. It's that kind of scent. I don't get civet, so it must be behaving as well. I like this one, but I don't love it. I will be keeping it for the name, the novelty, and the shrine.

Tested thanks to the GC swap quikslvr arranged! My notes on this are limited, so I really need to find another imp to test it more completely, but here's my take on what I remember and what the notes in it are. Here's the thing: Sandalwood and carnation shouldn't work on me. Morocco is gorgeous straight on, but then it goes powdery- I attribute that to the sandalwood. I love the spiciness of this one, and wish it would last longer. I'm definitely going to need an imp of this.