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Since my own wedding is 3 months away, my thoughts are pretty much focused on the wedding, and how much crap I still have to do for it. When I couldn't get to sleep last night, I flipped on the tv, and found the show 'Bridezillas' on which I watched for about 20 minutes. One of the brides made the comment that 'the wedding is all about the bride, and the groom doesn't matter'. I'd like to say that it's the first time I've heard that idea, but it's not. I know of several people who felt that way about their own wedding. Our wedding will be focused not just on me, because honestly it's not just me getting married. It's Todd and I. Besides, he might get more attention, since he's inviting more people I did get some wedding stuff done - I got the cloaks for the bridal party ordered yesterday, and I'll get them in a couple of weeks, which is awesome. This weekend, beyond cleaning, I'm going to get my invitations weighed, so I can buy stamps, so I can start to get those finished.

I feel bad that: I didn't make the picture slideshow on my cousin's Myspace page, and that there are two pictures of my selfish sister on there. my husband's eBay auctions aren't going to sell. my kitty loves my husband more than me. my mom is gone, and lots of people still have theirs.

I just wanted to offer I've had more than one bridal breakdown, and they are getting more frequent. If you need someone to vent to, let me know

I tend to go through phases where I'm highly interested in one television show, or one series of books. Currently, it's 7th Heaven. My husband had watched it much longer than me, and when we started living together, we'd watch it on and off. This winter though, I started to watch it faithfully every Monday. I found a used copy of Season 1 at a game store, and it sat on my shelf for a while. I picked it up and started watching it a couple of weeks ago. I was watching it nearly every day, and I went through Season 1 pretty quick, so I went to eBay to find a copy of Season 2. I, against my better judgement, bid on a copy, and won, and it arrived yesterday. So, there will be lots of 7th Heaven-ness at my house tonight. I don't know what I'll do after I finish Season 2 though... Season 3 isn't on DVD yet.

I've been really sad this week... overwhemling so. Wedding planning is hard, especially since my mom is gone, and I don't really have any help in NC. Todd helps when he can, but it's at the stage that he isn't interested in - making favors, getting the invitations ready, and such. I was looking forward to having the couple days off over the 4th to get some of this wedding stuff done, and now I'm dreading the 4th because my in-laws are coming to visit. I'm afraid I'll be kicked out of my own bedroom (my in-laws helped us move, and took over our bedroom. The first week of our marriage we couldn't even sleep together!) - I don't sleep well to begin with, but I really don't want to have to sleep on a blow up bed, then have to go to work for 10 + hours, then have to come home to 'entertain'. The very thought makes me want to cry. I'm really sad that the SC meet and sniff isn't going to happen. I know I shouldn't have gone anyway because of the money, and because of the messy house, but I probably would have gone. I had been looking forward to it for quite a while now And again, I wish I had friends - girl friends, mostly. I don't have anyone really to blather on about wedding stuff, to come to my fittings with me, to help me with invitations, to watch girly movies, and talk about things only girls can understand. I miss having a best girl friend... and I even miss the best girl friend I had in college (though she become quite a crappy friend the last couple years of our friendship). Life is hard... and I really try to keep upbeat (I know, it's hard to tell from my posts), but with feeling sick all the time (my lovely headaches insure that I'm in pain, all day every day) and being so lonely, it's hard to keep happy.

I fear that I'm not a good person. I don't have very many friends, and those I do have seem to be pulling away from me. I'm not sure why I have such a hard time making and keeping friends. My whole history of friendships show how people end up not liking me as a friend, and then dumping me. I just want a couple of good friends that I can call and talk to, or hang out with. I have my husband, and he's great (and I do wonder sometimes how he can stand me), but I only see him on the weekends. I had really wanted to go to the meet & sniff in SC this weekend, and now it appears that no-one is going. I was really looking forward to it, and now all I have to look forward to is a weekend of lots and lots of cleaning. I'm sad and I'm lonely, and I'm super stressed out over work and the wedding, and now that my in-laws are coming to visit, I'm stressed about that.

*nods* I might try posting here more often... especially about things I don't want to rant about on lj

Bordello - I put that on when I was very new to bpal, and my husband was sitting next to me. He said that it smelled like sex, though I didn't really get that.

The forum is messed up for me and a handful of other people. It's a real chore to try and read anything on the forums, since I have to wade through error screens, and having the forum jump back to the main page. Because of this, I haven't been around the forums as much as I usually would be, and I'm feeling disconnected from the entire bpal fandom which makes rather sad I've been missing my mom an awful lot as of late too, which makes me feel sad as well. I think the stress of the wedding, and the fact that it is only 5 months away, is wearing on me.

I use peppermint to ward off headaches, and either Somnus or Sleepy moon to help me get to sleep. I also keep Baku on my bedside table, in case I have a nasty nightmare.

I don't smell mint in this at all - which is good since mint usually doesn't work for me. In the bottle and on my skin it's a pure creamy vanilla which is just wonderful

This is so sweet, very caramel-y, and it was a little overpowering in the bottle. Once it was on my skin, it toned down and it's the perfect caramel scent for me. It's what I was hoping Gluttony was going to be

It usually takes about 6 weeks for my orders to come.

Traditionally, Beaver Moon is named thus for a very obvious reason: during this time of year, beavers are hard at work building their dams and preparing for the onset of winter. Because it was too hard to resist, BPAL’s Beaver Moon is sillier, sleazier, and full of camp. This scent is of cheesecake and cupcakes, more in line with its cheekier connotations, and really hasn’t a damn thing to do with Luna at all! This was both in the bottle and on my skin a cheesecake scent with a hint of strawberries. I love this scent!

This one smells like hot chocolate mix - I didn't smell much of the pumpkin though.

For my courthouse wedding I wore Bliss... I'll probably wear the same for my big wedding

It smells exactly like candy corn!! I really like this scent, candy like but less sugary to me than Sugar Skull. I might have to get me a big bottle of this.

This is a pure strawberry smell - both in the bottle and on my skin! I love it!

In the bottle and when first applied, it's very fruity and lovely. It drys and loses it's scent very fast on my skin though, and turns to baby powder. I'll probably try it again in a couple of weeks, and hopefully it will last longer.

I'm a bride, getting married next September, and I've decided on Bliss. I love the scent, and the name kinda fits for a wedding, as wedding should be blissful.

Very strong leather smell. It reminds of a shop at ren fest that sells leather hair clips and leather roses. It stays with that leather smell and is strong for quite a while.

For me, Yemaya was way to perfumy/floral-y for my tastes. I wished it as a little more fruity on me.

I've never had a problem with CCnow. Paypal on the other hand, is not safe in my opinion. I had an incident with paypal last year where all the money in my account was taken out. I did get it back, but it was a huge hassle.

In the bottle, it's girl scout thin mints On my skin, I really can't smell it. My boy smelled the coconut yesterday and it make him feel sicker I think this one is going to have to be one for a scent locket.

I was surfing around ebay, waiting for something to download when I came across this: Auction Honestly, who would pay for a spreadsheet, especially since I know there are several people here who will share theirs for free. I mean no disrespect if the seller is on the forums, but it just seems silly and un-necessary to me. Anyway, thought I'd share.